Before Morgan…a trip across the country to an unexplored city seemed exciting! can't wait another minute! just get us there! The meals, the hikes, the new winding streets always seemed unable to be topped. Unmatched. I feel fortunate to be healthy, aware of my youth and physical abilities, grateful for gathering info and making wise choices to max out a Saturday, a vacation, a weekend tip. Can we stay forever?
After Morgan…I feel all the things mentioned above but now I additionaly see connections. Everywhere I look now I see the fine tuned beauty of relationships---the ones with friends, with family, with oneself---and I find that my sensitivity to those relationships and recognizing them within my own world has just magnified exponentially since her birth. The delicacy of life and the beauty that children give to your own, it's as if I finally recieved a set of Rx glasses after years in the haze. Never super blury but always lacking a focus that I couldn't pinpoint until we hit our stride as parents and rose to the occasion of it all. Did used to love discovering a new brunch spot on a random weekend with my hubby? Of course! A solo day and stumbling across a coffee shop with an oversized chair begging to be sat in to read the afternoon away? Naturally! But now…oh but now? The precious gift of time seems intensified. And in the awareness of my time I have discovered the gift of a deepened sense of gratitude. So far, my greatest accomplishment in life so far is this walking, quasi-talking little pigtailed blondie standing 3ft tall and rocking my world…and she did so one early morning, sleepless infancy night at a time. And now, it's each sticker book and play doh filled afternoon where my flow exisits simply in being with her and watching her discover, grow and imagine.
"because once you experience the deep end, shallow waters aren't the same."