I always feel most present when I write. Writing takes me to a place of flow, where time stands still and there are no minutes just thoughts to that separate the spaces of time. I've said it before, but I do this for my own history. A narrative to look back on and be so happy I've documented bits of this journey.
Connectivity to our own worlds is what binds us and creates a sense of community but I'm finding more and more that when I shut off from all else while playing with Morgan or lunching solo I do my best thinking and journaling or blogging. This past week at the beach I took a morning to roam rehoboth ave before much of the shore town woke up and curled into a diner booth and wrote pages upon pages in Morgans baby book. I should say 2nd book (I already filled journal 1!). The compilation of notes in my handwriting I hope are some she treasures (ok, even laughs at) and fuels my desire to keep up with it every 3-4wks. Recently I had been reading and writing about the emotional development of toddlers and it's just fascinating. Just before and around the age of 2 is when children do their first defiance dance (the second marked one happening in early teen years fueled by puberty's hormonal surge) and while the "terrible twos" are something the common public are so aware of, it's not until you experience day in and day out the non verbal frustration exploding via hitting, red face meltdowns, and screams for any reason such as strapping the stroller in before putting goldfish in the snack tray...that you realize how incessant this phase is. So with all that said, yes, I'm ready for Morgan to start really talking and being able to tell me what she wants. (Famous last words?) The mama guessing game is exhausting.
Wanna hear the cutest things that the little miss does now tho? She pats my back when giving me a hug around my neck. It melts me everytime. If I hand her some blueberries and says "a'mama" which I've learned means "and mama too!" and she isn't happy unless I have what she's having :) and she has a sense of humor! A real person actual sense of humor which I noticed most markedly while watching Finding Nemo and that part where Dori says "just keep swimming"...it cracks her up just like the rest of us:)
These moments are our life. These city days and travels that have packed this summer are the dream we've wanted and are so fortunate to live.
Also, lotta toddler fashion going on these days;)